You're Still the One

What's wrong about today? I felt very awkward today. I just woke up early to find myself in a coma. I did not pay attention to the time, I was awake in an hour but still I'm not in the mood to start the day. It feels tired to see myself walking around and got nothing to do. ..then suddenly i snap back to reality and hey! tomorrow is April 15 and that's the day you've committed to have a demo on STI ..and so? I turned on the pc and start doing my thing.

..BUT BUT BUT..hey..I did not notice that April 14 comes before April 15 and yes! It's the 14th of the month of April. And then? So what? ...

...I met a heartache.THANK YOU :)

It hurts to see that he's no longer the one I've been loving for so long. Did I? Am I really in this feeling of hurt? Am I? Maybe it's not yet over for me but for him, we're totally over. Much longer than what I've been expecting for to overcome circumstances like this.

"You're still the one and I'll be your fore 'coz together will be one, one for each other "

....but now I'll still be the fore but you're not the one and we'll no longer be the one for each other ...

I'm still stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be
I'm only left with used-to-be's and once upon a song
I'm still here where you left me lying
I'm still the one who cares but no longer the one to love you even more

I MUST STOP THIS MESS.

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Damn, I Still Feel the Same..

I don't know if it still matters to me but I do feel a lot more like excitement when my YM prompts that I have a new comment from him in my FS account. At first I sad, like duh? I'm busy doing my demo..but then here I go again doing this weirdo stuff and like whoa ... I am now replying to his comments .. and he's doing it vice versa ...

My FS account and he's looks like a chat area Box.. We teased each other like no one sees us. Damn great but I know it's not this heavy. The feeling isn't yet gone but it's not that much to fight for. I guess :S

Every little thing of him will be kept but it's over..totally over... He asked for my phone number and I'm now in cloud nine :) Sorry, but it felt that way. It's a bit confusing that my heart beats faster than usual, Oh yeahh ...ka egat nako..

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Making Up My Mind; It's better off this way..

I just got to the final plan that I'm going to Cebu, and YES! it's a very BIG YES!! I think it would be better for me to be away from GenSan after grad. I am so happy that my parents agreed to it the second time around. To Rai, I felt very sorry about the disappointment I've caused her, but I guess I just made it set back again. The plans we've made will surely come into action! Oh YES! It excites me more everyday but still I'm gonna try applying here in GenSan. I love it here but I wanna grow, to be more mature as what I suppose to be. I know God will guide me and that I will be responsible for myself. I told aldwin once..

"puslan man diba?" >>This idea made me accomplish this task to brought out to my parents about my plan. I hope I will deserve this escape of my life. I must grow out for I know I have so many responsibilities to accomplish. My family isn't that good to look at but these trials made me strong. It's where I get my strength to move on and be strong for them. I will right back what is wrong but if not, I will try to minimize the friction right now. Just give me some time to prove it and I will really do it. I will be strong especially for my Mom and my Bro; they're the only treasure that I got that I must defend in all trials. I will be their shield and to my Dad; my biological Dad, I just hope it's not yet too late for you to see that I am worth more than your money. My Papang Bel who's been supportive to me and gave me love as a father; I hope someday you'll see me paint the colors that I really want to do. I will make you be proud of me. I promise that to myself. Hope all of you will be at my back everytime I need a face that tells me "Kaya nimo na Rang! Ikaw pa.." .

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Is it OVER?

And it's such a miracle that you and me
are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool ...

moonmagesho: magma din
moonmagesho: sa msu ako
Rang2: uhm? MABUTI ...
Rang2: gagaling ka sa SKUL namin heheh
moonmagesho: hehe
moonmagesho: pano gani ako magenrol dun>
moonmagesho: san ka?
moonmagesho: ung mga letter ?
Rang2: punta ka sa MSU hi skul. try mo Inquire dun..dun kasi ang graduate skul ehh
Rang2: san ako? -- sa bhay namin sa lagao
moonmagesho: aw
Rang2: mag enrol ka na agad pla?
moonmagesho: sana
Rang2: awts..go...start ka na inquire ehh..habang summer pa...samok nman gud na pag me klase na..
moonmagesho: aw
moonmagesho: ok
Rang2: sure
moonmagesho: xenxa
moonmagesho: mejo daming ginagawa
Rang2: aw..okie lang oi..gowahead
moonmagesho: yung mga letter ba
Rang2: uhm? imo na to
moonmagesho: ayaw mo na nun?
Rang2: dili bitaw..itago sa..
moonmagesho: aw
moonmagesho: bka lumipat ako
Rang2: kay habang wala ko dre sa blay..murag mas safe xa dnha sa imo..dra lang sa..dili man kaha nimo sunugon?
moonmagesho: pag nakabili
moonmagesho: pero matagal pa
moonmagesho: paro
moonmagesho: maginventory kasi ako
moonmagesho: dili man pud
Rang2: sa unsa sad?
moonmagesho: grbe
Rang2: inventory?
moonmagesho: haha
moonmagesho: sa mga gamit nako
Rang2: char..salmat sa inventory jud imong term ha? makakurat man sad ka
Rang2: aw..bitaw..itago lng sa
Rang2: bka sa 2nd balik ko nlng sa Gensan kunin if settled nako sa Cebu ha? iapil lang sa na sa imong inventory
moonmagesho: xur
moonmagesho is typing a message.
moonmagesho: oi
moonmagesho: exit muna ako
Rang2: okay
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